I had to wear a suit recently. It’s a suit I bought after I had started newbodi.es, and was in pretty good shape. That said, I was 15-20 pounds heavier and a couple of inches wider around the waist than I am now. That’s not to say I was big then or am too small now – I’m just in a different kind of shape. That’s not the point so much as what happened when I put the suit on – it was big. The pants were loose enough that tightening them with a belt was tricky as too much material bunched up around the waist. The moral of the story? I need to get them taken in.
I’ve had a long history of pants not fitting, but usually in the sense that they’re too tight. I can’t even remember a time when I had pants that were too big except for the time I lost a dramatic amount of weight at the end of high school (I went from over 245 down to about 185).[tweet_box design=”box_12_at” author=”newbodies”]#Celebrate your current #success & let that guide the choices you make for your life today[/tweet_box]
So, no big deal, right? Just take the suit to the tailor, and get it taken in a bit. But see, that’s the problem – it is a big deal to me. The reason is that I have this internal fear that I won’t stay this size, and will need the pants let out or replaced, so getting them taken in will be a waste of money.
Why do I feel this way? History.
See, as I mentioned, my history with tailors is generally one of having things let out (or buying fat kid clothes that are really made for adults, and having to have the legs shortened for my kid-sized frame). Add to that how, after my dramatic weight loss in high school, I ended up slowly putting on much of the weight again. Sure, I looked very different (you wouldn’t know that I was a mere 20 pounds away from my heaviest weight), and my waist wasn’t quite as big, but it was certainly bigger than it had gotten when I lost weight. So history tells me that I don’t get pants taken in, and I don’t stay thin.
But history tells me a lot of things. I’m too young to drive, I don’t have the training to coach or train people, I can’t speak the foreign languages I learned, etc. And history is wrong on all counts (among many others). So why does this history lesson stick with me so much? I think it’s a simple case of the emotions attached to my obesity. They’re powerful and deep-rooted. But they don’t have to dictate my life.
I can rationalize how these thoughts aren’t valid anymore. My lifestyle is totally different, I know so much more, I’m a father with all the associated motivations of being healthy for my son, etc, etc, etc. So it’s up to me to take the view of history that financial advisors take – past performance is not an indication of future returns [to obesity].
So, I will take the pride, performance and situation I’ve built, and get my suit taken in. Swimming is great, but in water, not in clothes.[tweet_dis]Don’t let the past define you[/tweet_dis] – a you that was motivated by different things, and perhaps lacked the tools to do better – continue to make choices for the current you. Celebrate your current success and let that guide the choices you make for your life today. Progress is how you enlighten.your.body.